Lakers

LAKERS Jersey: Vintage store on Melrose Avenue, LA

Boots: Dr. Martens

 (I think these all black ones are limited edition but you can find similar ones here )

Beanie: Primark

Nail polish: MAC Salad Dressed

I finally got to do a shoot with a very talented photographer I've wanted to work with for ages, the lovely Jay Stewart (@jaystewartphotography) He has a thing for funny faces so we played about and had loads of fun..there are some shocking ones but also some funny ones!

Will be putting some more shots up from this shoot soon, so look out for them.

Saccharine Cyanide

Saccharine cyanide drips from your lips
Caresses my neck, my back, my hips
My clit
The cloying smell clings to my hair
Fills the air
Threatens to suffocate
Me
Here, in this closet you've dragged me back into
Here, where the darkness
That is identical to your soul
Permeates
Everything
Every giggle, every smile, every lick, every nick
Name
Is doused in hate
But hate is just love confused
I hate you, I love you
I hate that I love you
I love that you hate loving me
Because that means you love me. Right?
Well, you do tonight
And at night you love me over and over again
Love everything I've taught you
And I've taught you well
We're breathless
And sweaty
And it's beautiful
But it's dirty
Because you've made me hate you
And I've made you love me
And when I look in the mirror
I don't recognise who I see
The comedown could kill me
But I'm addicted to this pain
As you shoot another sugary reassurance directly into my vein
This isn't me
Who am I?
Who am I?
Who am I?
Your poisonous promises have corroded my spirit
Leaving this desolate shell
Acting up, acting out
Surely I'd be better off without
You
So when the spark is lit
And the flames begin to lick
And burn this whole fucking mess to the ground
There's an underlying relief
At this forced intervention
Because I don't know if I could have found the strength
Or the desire...
The smashed mirror rearranges
Until I identify my reflection
It's me, but with an improved perception
Weaned myself off of you and your crazy ways
Desperate nights and euphoric days
So when the bad penny rolls around again
Claiming to still love me
It's nothing short of a victory
To be able to decline politely
I'm sorry
This new me is drug-free

The Bright Side

Be nice
Think happy thoughts
Champion silver linings
Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens)
& when you love - love like they do in power ballads
(you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know another love like this)
Watch out for dogpoo
Smile at people - even grumpy ones
Be nice
(oh I said that already)
Remember that anything is possible
& whatever you do
always try to
look on
The Bright Side

(this message is on the back of all the cards by The Bright Side. I love it!)

Balance

Lovely.
Such a 'nice' word
Safe. Secure. Dependable.
Conjures soft smiles and sweet kisses
Routine and Right Thing To Do
Early nights and Forever
I've been there...first love
Perfect introduction
But restlessness inhabited my bones
Flushed cheeks
A pounding heart
Sweaty palms and somersaulting stomach
I need that.
Crave the excitement of illicit encounters
Uncertainty and a whisper of danger
Immeasurable passion
When will I learn balance?

Gone Too Far

Behind the scenes photos from an amazing comedy that wrapped just this week! Was a lot of fun; I can't wait to see the finished product.

Adapted from the play, Gone Too Far was written by Bola Agbaje and directed by Destiny Ekaragha and stars myself, Adelayo Adedayo, Malachi Kirby, O.C Ukeje and Tosin Cole among others.

Myself and Adelayo aka best mates Armani and Paris, first day on set. We filmed outside for most  of the shoot and the drizzly rain drove the lovely hair and make up ladies crazy so they bought us these incredibly glamorous granny hats to protect our hair..but we actually grew to love them!

Armani..fully ratchet!

Mirror shot

The coldest day of filming...3 hot water bottles were sooo needed!

Tut Tut...Adelayo and O.C caught napping on set haha

Rob Nicholls our costume main man

I'm not even going to act like I know what was going on here... Tosin Cole and our head make-up artist My Alehammer

Anna (costume) and Alice (make-up) when our base moved to a church!

My, Rani Sikka and Alice Townes our lovely make-up ladies

All cast and crew had a Gone Too Far beanie

Champers for wrap day

Cheeeeese!

Family affair

Rob tucking into the mince pies!

Tosin, Shanika and Malachi...

Orrrr Razer, Armani and Yemi?

Fire And Ice

I got it wrong
I placed you high up on a pedestal
Anchored by impossible ideals
And romantic notions fed to me by someone else's dreams
But cold grey reality deemed my childish fantasy unworthy
And snuck in to steal my rose tinted glasses
So now I see you for what you are
Just a ragged sigh, a sharp intake of breath
Ice on my thigh, Fire on my neck
A gentle caress is just a gentle caress
Nothing more, nothing less
Nothing more
Nothing less

VICTIM

Yesterday, Victim came out in cinemas across the UK and I'm very excited about it!
It's a film that was written by friends of mine and was made with a lot of love and passion from all involved, from cast to crew. We've waited a long time for it to finally be released and everybody at the gala screening really enjoyed and was touched by it. To celebrate the release here are a few snaps taken on set.

Tell a friend to tell a friend, support British Film and go see Victim at a cinema near you!




Me sandwiched between Jazon Maza (Manny) and Michael Maris (Jason)



Anna and I with lovely leading lady Ashley Madekwe who played Tia...freezing in our warm coats!




Natasha Sparkes (Yaren), Anna Nightingale (Davina) and me (Charmaine)

 

On set during our nightclub scenes doing shots of water! Very fun day



One of my favourite pictures from on set